night 6... Lord give me strength

I really don't want to do this. At least it isn't as late as it has been right? My muscles are starting to feel comfortable with the exercises. The ab part still burns and actually burns more each night. I am very particular about how I do my "crunches" after taking a class where the teacher taught us the most effective (more painful) way to work our abs. Her method showed me it isn't about the crunch as much as it is about your PELVIS and back and neck being properly aligned on the floor. Although I don't have all of those tools (soft pillow type bags, foam roller, tennis balls?!) I can feel when I am working not just the abdominal muscles but the TRANSVERSE muscle as well which is like the girdle of the abs. It wraps around and cinches the waist in so that you can maintain that small waist and flat tummy. I KNOW!! Isn't that muscle amazing. Working it however, burns immediately and requires patience and prayers in order to complete a set. I am in no way capable of doing them PERFECTLY but I am definitely doing them to the best and fullest of capabilities. Anyways enough about abs. I still have to actually do the workout tonight :(. Might as well not talk about it. Ha ha

• leftover pancakes (four) they were a tad stale :(
• yogurt slush from... LOLLICUP! (free )
• sprinkles fattening cupcake *(free but kinda oily and not worth the gas or it being free)
• 1 1/2 slices of pizza from last nights leftovers (after phantom)
• ate some rice and chicken katsu with the ladies (we all shared)
• coffee

Ugh.. I need to lay off the unbalanced carbohydrate food plan. ha ha I will NEVER see real results eating like a desperate junk food eater. Everything I ate aside from the wheat and flax seed pancakes was pretty unhealthy and extremely greasy. The Lord knows I need strength to stick to a nice a routine. But it really needs to be more than a plan. It needs to be a desire. Otherwise this will all just be a waste and I will either dropout half way or complete this challenge and revert back into what I was like before.

JESUS strengthen and guide me in this process! You know my heart and you know what I need more than I do. So God just change me and make me more like you and give me the love and desire to take care of myself and health. I know you can give me that power!! Iloveyou AMEN

♥cheche

NIGHT 5!!! ♥

sooo Don't want to excercise tonight. I have been successful four nights in a row SO FAR. I guess I can crank out tonight! AHHH What in the world have I gotten myself into. And why must it ALWAYS be so late at night as well? Such a crazy woman this Chetreanna is. Yes I just spoke of myself in 3rd person but at this hour of the night/morning and with so much to do you'd be speaking much different than usual also. So here I am! Yay.

• 4pancakes with agave syrup
• handful of flaming hot cheetoh puffs :)
• twix bar 
• bite of Katie's sandwich
• 4 pieces of bread before dinner with the butter packet :(
• 2 slices of olive pizza from RAINBOW ROOM in LA. mmm doesn't get better!
• scoop of chocoice cream
• couple bites of cheesecake despite not liking it. 
• bite of chocolate cake didnt like that either

Now I am home. I had a full bottle of water today and a glass at dinner. My water is SLACKING hardcore y'all. That is such bad thing because WATER is the key to good health! Ahh. Well, luckily I had a fabulous time in LA eating crazy, delicious, unhealthy goodness! Now I get to work out and pray to wake up on time. God please give me the strength!!

♥cheche

night 4

so It is coming to the fourth night of this lovely circuit. The eating plan hasn't really been implemented into my daily routine QUITE as dutifully. I'm worried that as a result of my eating behavior it might deter me later in my commitment. God tells me not to worry and cast all my fears to him so I will do that and just be thankful and blessed that I have made it to night four of this little circuit commitment. LoL. I know that I don't have any followers so it may be weird when others read this and they see how I refer to an audience but whether or not I have anyone following me I really need *at least for right now* the silent encouragement of the web. I need to come and just lay it all down and stay honest in my commitment and get my job done. It really is a small task when I look at other commitments I have made. The reason I feel this is important is because you psychologically start habits by continuously doing something. By doing this seven days in a row I may just become amazing over night on the 8th day. Lol

MY food for today:

• Breakfast: BOWL OF OATMEAL

•                    COFFEE WITH 4 packets of sugar (16oz)

• Lunch: Footlong or less? worth of subway sandwiches. *subway gave us coldcuts and I had two and a bite*

•            SIX6 Vietnamese PORK egg roll thingys. I KNOW I KNOW witw(what in the world)??

• Dinner:2 1/2 pancakes at Dennys 2 bites of hash browns..

yeah not much green or fruit in there huh? Kinda on the brown side? Lol Silly Me. At least I ate though right? I really am not going to worry about the food just right now. I want to get into this workout routine and then that will start to take shape don't you think?? God is so patient with us we need to learn from HIM and be more patient with ourselves. Things will never change INSTANTLY overnight unless you win the lottery, lose a family member or loved one, get in a car accident... But when it comes to changing a part of who you are. It takes steps forward and encouragement during those pauses between those steps. The next thing you know your walking as if you never hesitated before!

night 3

Got home a tad late from church tonight and felt lead to post on my other blog first about lies before getting on here. I completed last nights circuit btw!! woo hoo I don't know if that was something I had the chance to tell you or not. I decided that I am going to do tonights circuit even though I am feeling extremely tired :( and I am pushing my threshold having work in the morning as well. The show must go on. I want to feel firm and toned at the end of this challenge and you gotta put in work to get the results right?

FOOD FOR TODAY:

I ATE LIKE A MONSTER :( LOL

• BOWL OF CEREAL
• 2 WAFFLES WITH AGAVE
• 1/2 JACK IN THE BOX OREO SHAKE (ahh.. LOL)
• a few fries off of Bines plate :)
• GODIVA TRUFFLE (DOUBLE ahhh)
• Mrs. Field Choco cookie :) yumm
• melon, cantaloupe and pineapple 
• 2 1/2 slices of pizza. No cheese on one slice didnt eat the crust so I don't feel so bad
• played a round of dodgeball at church :)
• a bite of choco cupcake!

I know it isn't looking too healthy. I GOT FRUIT IN THOUGH! Today I only paid for the cookie and I had a coffee before church. other than that being a bit on the broker side I just sort of ate what was available or given. Can't wait to go grocery shopping and have more handy healthier items on hand. I feel like things are beginning to take shape. Last night the circuit wasn't AS difficult. It gets easier every night. By next weeks end I may have to start adding some lunges and new reps in there :). Muscle memory baby!!! WOO WOO. Yeah I am not expecting a complete 360 in a week. Sorry I am not full of crazy dreams of absurd ideas of reality. This is more for my health. To stay active and just feel better. I think we all feel A LOT better when we are sore and know that we put in the work to get our muscles moving :)!!! RIGHT! Praise God. Alright so I am heading off to do the circuit for tonight and hit the bed for an early workday.

Sadly I ended up sleeping in for my math class. AHH! I know I am pushing the boundaries aren't I. School night I really need to get to bed on time before midnight. It takes a toll on me. No bueno

Love you and get active today just for you!

♥

Night 2

So. Here I am on my 2nd night and I have to tell you that I honestly do not want to work out. I tried on workout clothes today and nearly passed out at how just unattractive they all seemed to look on me. Maybe it was the mirrors or maybe it was my head but either way I felt kinda defeated. I still haven't done my circuit but I feel like I will definitely complete it as soon as I get off. Either way I plan to inform you of what exactly went down.
I ate like a kid who loves to eat today

@830am:    bowl of oatmeal
@1115am:    spicy chicken sandwich 4rm chick-fil-a
@1pm:      Bowl of tortilla soup + redrobin steak fries
@6pm:      2/3 of a like it COLDSTONE FRENCH VANILLA W/ OREOS
@7pm:      A bowl of mixed fruit
@810pm:    A bowl of mixed fruit
@9pm:      1/2 a slice of pumpkin bread
@1030pm:   Handful of salt n vinegar chips + 1/2 pizza slice


so as you can see. My food was messy, sloppy and crazy today. But that is the honest truth. I even forgot the few pork rines I ate :(? I just wanted salty and decided to eat from the bag my coworker had on the table. I felt like a waste during the coldstone feeding, steak fries feeding and late nice chips and pizza snack. I was actually not able to enjoy the coldstone because it honestly lacked flavor and didn't really taste like much of anything. It was cold, creamy and sweet but the vanilla flavor lacked ALOT and the oreos didn't really stand out taste wise. Everything blended into one big cold, crunchy, creamy blah. I ate more than I wanted out of hunger and threw the rest away at church.
The pumpkin bread was good and I only ate a bit but I felt like I should have stayed away because of the COLDSTONE I had already eaten earlier. And the bread was homemade which was awesome! The handful of salt n vinegar chips and pizza slice were silly because I am supposed to do my circuit and how in the world can ANYONE be motivated if 30 minutes before they were sopping up grease? LoL
So basically you live and your learn. What I learned today: Coldstone is overrated thank God it was free. Snacking on grease before working out is dumb. I need to eat my fruit throughout my day. I need to buy groceries so all of my food intake does not consist of drive-thru and greasy fried food :/.

Alright! That is all for tonight. Tune in tomorrow to find out how the circuit did or did not go. What will I chooose hm...

♥cheche

wow!! Welcome back Chetreanna

I just finished the circuit that I committed too. I almost went to bed without doing it but then I thought of coming on here and having to type that I didn't complete the commitment or feeling tempted to lie about it. Either of which would have just not sat right with me. It really didn't seem like a difficult way to get back in the game. But I did the complete 3 FULL circuits and I actually opted for the 25 squats because I can not stand doing them without the right form and so I ended up doing extras without really counting to make up for any that were not done properly. I know I am a perfectionist but it pays off in a lot of good ways.

Right now I am excited to go to bed after having worked out. The push-ups took a bit of adjusting too. A few months with no push-ups can really make a girl get weird and have to do her 10 push-ups girly style. I know everyone is asleep but I felt so embarrassed having to do them on my knees. My core was shaking so bad that I honestly was wondering what those months of doing them 3-4 times a week had went. MUSCLE MEMORY folks. It really does forget after a while. Luckily, muscle memory also means that Chetreanna will be able to regain that lost memory and then some within the next 90 days.

I have challenged myself like this before and it really payed off. The gym 4-5 times a week was the goal. Which left 2 free days. I did that for a month straight and saw AMAZING differences. I got many compliments and felt better all around. However, things changed and a year later from doing that challenge last  year I find myself with no gym pass and inactive. Quite honestly the sedentary lifestyle is only as comfortable as you allow it to be. I don't feel as good about ANYTHING when I am not being active and engaging in some type of challenging workout weekly. Seriously it is NOT about the food. Working out is where the change takes place. It releases those happy endorphins and it actually is what guides your eating habits. After working out you desire something filling and also nourishing that won't leave you feeling like you are ready to give birth. Your body starts communicating clearly its needs and you finally are able to accept and provide for it. I have not had fruit more than 2x a week for the past couple of months either. How crazy is that. Yes I have NO MONEY whatsoever but I can manage to smuggle some grapes in every now and then can't I. There are only so many excuses before you realize there aren't any excuses. Only do or do not my friends.

Well, it is midnight and I sound like I just had coffee. Nope, that is the sound of tight thighs and abs :). Ha Ha. Anyways I bid you ado but before I leave. Take a few minutes out of today to do some push-ups or sit-ups! Then tell me how you feel :).

Jesus loves you as well so try to smile throughout the burn. He he

♥

Alright.. Day 1 wrap up

I am going to head over to the bookstore and do some reading. Then I am going to come home and complete my first night of circuit training :)!! So, so excited.. I think I am really just lacking the will after that nice season of eating donuts every night. I guess I assumed it would never catch up with me or something. Plus, I was healing from a break-up and turning to food with my given background is definitely a normal and expected way to heal. Only I should NOT have turned to the donuts. Perhaps I should start going to my meetings again?? I don't know. I haven't thrown-up in over a year but I really am struggling with eating healthy and being happy with my body. Not to the point of death or self-loathing but still. This is something that will always require maintenance and me being active in my healing and recovery. God can only help those who take action and reach out right?

My FOOD for today:

• @945AM- BOWL OF CEREAL

• @130PMISH- HEALTHY CHOICE STEAMER MEAL

• @5PM- 6INCH SUBWAY FOOTLONG (sweetonion teriyaki)

• @710pm- the other half of my 6inch sub

So I am done with food for the day. Anything else I eat will probably be liquid or fruit. I took one too many bites of the second half of my sandwich. My tummy actually kind of aches on the left side. Definitely do not like the feeling of eating more than my stomach really is meant to handle. Whenever I eat and I'm at the computer or in front of the t.v I don't really get to think about what I am eating. I just sort of eat and then zone out with the computer or the television. I remember that book talking about eating with distractions. Meaning tv, homework, work, games, computer.. etc. Everything is out of the way so you can focus on enjoying your meal and honoring your hunger signals. The taste of my meal was good but it wasn't extraordinary. I definitely am going to implement this type of eating in my meals. I miss practicing awareness with eating. I just haven't had the time to really enjoy eating I guess or I haven't been focusing on it at least. The breakup sort of eclipsed everything else in my life for a while. Funny how that works huh?

Well no more excuses anymore. I am not asking to look like a model. But I really want to be in shape and feel comfortable with my body like I did a year ago. It is never too late! Tonight is the first night of many :). I love getting back into action it feels amazing.

Day 1 is about to end.

♥


p.s I forgot the half bag of sunflower multigrain chips.. they were NOT tasty so they were NOT finished :( ehh

So here I am...

Today I am weighing in at a rough 160 pounds. As far as I know this is my weight. At least that is how heavy I feel. A month ago I weighed in at 155 and 158 so I assume this is accurate. I need to buy a scale I suppose!? This is how much I weighed going to my prom senior year. I am only 5'7' so it's a bit heavy on my frame. I was quite happy at the anorexic 130 pounds I managed to make it down to without eating, however I feel 140-145 pounds is a great realistic compromise.

• My plan.. Well I don't have a plan yet. My gym membership was disposed of 4 months ago due to inactivity and no money to continue on with it. So I'm left with working out at home and or outside. I have decided that I need to commit to some type of weekly routine or else this will be a huge failure.

Food wise I do not want to restrict too much. Calorie counting drives most people crazy and watching what I eat will drive me insane as well. I will be practicing the art of eating and stopping when FULL. This is something my nutritionist called "INTUITIVE EATING" and there is even a book on the topic that is very helpful as well. Unfortunately, I stopped doing it a while ago and it was a lot easier to eat until nothing was left.
I will be incorporating the food plan my nutritionist laid out as well. Getting in the amount of protein, veggies, dairy and water she put on the plan. This will be a challenge as well as I am already dreading it!! But God willing I will be able to conquer this task and get myself back into shape!! Please pray for me. LoL

• My goal: 90 days of fitness. Of course, I will be saving the strenuous stuff to 4-5 days per week. The other two days will consist of stretching and light cardio. AM I IN WAY OVER MY HEAD?? I hope not because I really feel like God will always give me strength when I need it.
• Food Journals: That is where the blog comes in. I am now making the commitment to log in my Food for the day EVERY day for the next 90 days!!! AHHHHH How scary huh? No secrets will be allowed and this will be great accountability for me. WOO WOO
• Jesus and prayer. I need to start being aware of the negative thoughts that tell me I'm too fat to work out, to this-or that, never going to achieve anything or that I have to starve myself to be beautiful. These thoughts belong in HELL with the Father of lies Satan.

So now that I have gotten all of those jotted down and out there I will develop a game plan. Start with something easy I suppose.

TONIGHT I will do 30 minutes of crunches, pushups and squats. I should be able to get in 3 circuits of this combo within 30-35 minutes with a 1minute rest break between.

So my circuit should consist of this:

• 33 Crunches/Situps
• 10 push-ups
• 20 squats

Ahhh... So excited. Alright so there goes everything :)! Thank you to anyone following this. I could really use the encouragement. I will try to post weekly FULL body shots as well to keep up the momentum. This is going to make a great start to a new healthier me. :)