night 6... Lord give me strength

I really don't want to do this. At least it isn't as late as it has been right? My muscles are starting to feel comfortable with the exercises. The ab part still burns and actually burns more each night. I am very particular about how I do my "crunches" after taking a class where the teacher taught us the most effective (more painful) way to work our abs. Her method showed me it isn't about the crunch as much as it is about your PELVIS and back and neck being properly aligned on the floor. Although I don't have all of those tools (soft pillow type bags, foam roller, tennis balls?!) I can feel when I am working not just the abdominal muscles but the TRANSVERSE muscle as well which is like the girdle of the abs. It wraps around and cinches the waist in so that you can maintain that small waist and flat tummy. I KNOW!! Isn't that muscle amazing. Working it however, burns immediately and requires patience and prayers in order to complete a set. I am in no way capable of doing them PERFECTLY but I am definitely doing them to the best and fullest of capabilities. Anyways enough about abs. I still have to actually do the workout tonight :(. Might as well not talk about it. Ha ha

• leftover pancakes (four) they were a tad stale :(
• yogurt slush from... LOLLICUP! (free )
• sprinkles fattening cupcake *(free but kinda oily and not worth the gas or it being free)
• 1 1/2 slices of pizza from last nights leftovers (after phantom)
• ate some rice and chicken katsu with the ladies (we all shared)
• coffee

Ugh.. I need to lay off the unbalanced carbohydrate food plan. ha ha I will NEVER see real results eating like a desperate junk food eater. Everything I ate aside from the wheat and flax seed pancakes was pretty unhealthy and extremely greasy. The Lord knows I need strength to stick to a nice a routine. But it really needs to be more than a plan. It needs to be a desire. Otherwise this will all just be a waste and I will either dropout half way or complete this challenge and revert back into what I was like before.

JESUS strengthen and guide me in this process! You know my heart and you know what I need more than I do. So God just change me and make me more like you and give me the love and desire to take care of myself and health. I know you can give me that power!! Iloveyou AMEN

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