I am going to head over to the bookstore and do some reading. Then I am going to come home and complete my first night of circuit training :)!! So, so excited.. I think I am really just lacking the will after that nice season of eating donuts every night. I guess I assumed it would never catch up with me or something. Plus, I was healing from a break-up and turning to food with my given background is definitely a normal and expected way to heal. Only I should NOT have turned to the donuts. Perhaps I should start going to my meetings again?? I don't know. I haven't thrown-up in over a year but I really am struggling with eating healthy and being happy with my body. Not to the point of death or self-loathing but still. This is something that will always require maintenance and me being active in my healing and recovery. God can only help those who take action and reach out right?
My FOOD for today:
- @130PMISH- HEALTHY CHOICE STEAMER MEAL
- @5PM- 6INCH SUBWAY FOOTLONG (sweetonion teriyaki)
- @710pm- the other half of my 6inch sub
So I am done with food for the day. Anything else I eat will probably be liquid or fruit. I took one too many bites of the second half of my sandwich. My tummy actually kind of aches on the left side. Definitely do not like the feeling of eating more than my stomach really is meant to handle. Whenever I eat and I'm at the computer or in front of the t.v I don't really get to think about what I am eating. I just sort of eat and then zone out with the computer or the television. I remember that book talking about eating with distractions. Meaning tv, homework, work, games, computer.. etc. Everything is out of the way so you can focus on enjoying your meal and honoring your hunger signals. The taste of my meal was good but it wasn't extraordinary. I definitely am going to implement this type of eating in my meals. I miss practicing awareness with eating. I just haven't had the time to really enjoy eating I guess or I haven't been focusing on it at least. The breakup sort of eclipsed everything else in my life for a while. Funny how that works huh?
Well no more excuses anymore. I am not asking to look like a model. But I really want to be in shape and feel comfortable with my body like I did a year ago. It is never too late! Tonight is the first night of many :). I love getting back into action it feels amazing.
Day 1 is about to end.
♥
p.s I forgot the half bag of sunflower multigrain chips.. they were NOT tasty so they were NOT finished :( ehh
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